Soon to be unemployed

No, it's not really a sign of the times, it's just me talking myself out a job. I've spent the past year working part-time as a Special Events Coordinator for a Foundation that raises money for a long term care facility. I love my job, I'm going to miss my job. I worked while Matt was in school and Cam spent three days in daycare. Matt goes to school on Mondays, Wednesdays and some Fridays and because Cam was enrolled in the daycare centre they were happy to take Matt on those PD days and the some Fridays that he was not in school.

The challenge now is that Cam is starting school in the Fall and will be on the same almost three day schedule, which means he will not be enrolled in daycare and no one wants to care for two children some three days a month. I did look into home daycares but I could not find anyone that didn't either smoke, have a dog or a pool and was close enough and willing to walk the boys to school. The nanny thing just did not work for a multitude of reasons that could be an entire book unto itself. I approached worked and ask them if I could work from home which would allow me to walk my buddies to school and still get my work done and the response was they were not "keen" on the idea. Through this discuss process I suggested that they drop one of the fundraising projects that I worked on and another that took me four months to plan last year was completed in less than a month this year. They don't even really need me for the other project I worked on so essentially I talked myself out of a job.

There were other factors that contributed to this whole decision process like spending the whole year working and literally giving my pay cheque to the daycare only to find out that I don't make enough money to claim any of my childcare expenses on my income tax and poor Al the Man makes too much money and he can't claim me as a dependent because well I make money, kind of.

So very soon I'm going to be back home for the summer trying to figure out how to manage the long days that I know will pass all too quickly. Right know as I sit here typing this post, I'm watching Canada AM my morning ritual, drinking coffee and watching Matt dump a whole box of Shreddies all over the kitchen table. Cam is lying on the table shouting "Hey, save some for me! I want some!"

In preparation for this summer ahead I'm thinking about nature walks, tadpoles, bike rides, running through the sprinkler and tired happy boys. I know my time at home with these two will be short, I still have mixed feelings about work but I'm trying to trust in the universe that this is my path and it's all meant to be.